Exhale.....1am thoughts

Darkness surrounds me
In its shroud, choking I can't breath
Getting dizzy feeling claustrophobic
I need to get some air in
Or do I need to be exhaling
With every tap of my fingers on my dimly lit phone screen
I exhale everything i'd been holding within
The uncertainty about the future is scary
The kind of fear that comes with responsibility
My heart beat increases as I try to weigh how I feel
I'm not sure of anything
When did my world become so unsteady
Moving ahead of  the tide had always been my specialty
But the waves now crash all around me
What to do except ignore  my problems n pretend I'm in a movie
Where everything always works out eventually
But I know this is reality
Things don't work that way not entirely
There's a lot of bad with a sprinkle of good n never in it's entirety
I want to drift off to quiet sleep
But my melatonin levels haven't reached the required level
So I'm stuck trying to quantify my thoughts and feelings
But I'm clueless on how else to proceed...