Flatter me not

Why can't you see the truth surrounding me
Why can't you feel the aura permeating my surroundings
Why do you lie so blatantly
Like I can't look in the mirror and expose reality
I was forged from pain and loneliness, I've never been pretty
I've delved into self pity and condemnation i don't need flattery
But your smooth tongue never quits
I wish I could drown you in amytal sodium so only truth you'd speak
That I'm beyond broken and my pieces are  missing
That I'm the most beautiful form of ugly you've ever seen
Why can't you be this real
Tell me I'm brave and strong for going through all I did
Being pretty adds nothing to me darleen
It robbed me of my sanity and played with my psyche
All it brings is vanity upon vanity
I'll pass on being your sleeping beauty
I'd rather be a belle in your massive library
Let me be your unspoken poetry
Burning brightly with every metaphor and simile