Left behind

What's worse than the feeling of being left behind?
Is there any pain greater than that of being forgotten?
As your chest constricts and your heart bleeds
You think, could anything be worse than this
Sleepless nights and coffee
Loneliness surrounding you like a blanket
Tears clogging up your throat, sobs making it harder for you to breathe
Watching the world you love go on without you
Your feet encased in lead, unable to move unable to live
Everyday feels like 10 years, nights a century
"I can't do this" you whisper into the darkness
Ready to call it quits, ready to leave
But you're cursed with hope
That lingering feeling hovering over you on the hardest days
The reason you wipe your tears and learn from your mistakes
So you continue to exist barely alive but breathing
Watching time unravel and stop and start again
While you stand lost in it's wake
Waiting patiently for your single strand of hope to ignite
And light up your life.