Hi.....

Lately I've been learning new things about myself
Some good some bad but new nonetheless
Like how much I love the rain but I'm sensitive to cold
And how I think to buy ice cream when I'm sad even though I'm a yoghurt person
How I can't look in the mirror for too long cause I'm scared of what I'll see
How my depression is one part sad one part tired completely engulfing me
How I've never been comfortable in my own skin
Sometimes I think I don't know who I am
But other times I'm so certain of my kind of person
I'm taciturn and anti social and I love the peace of my own space
I exist in a suspended plane with my soul and my body never in concert
I second guess myself and overthink
But everyone thinks I'm confident
I smile alot to hide the sadness in my eyes but it still leaks out sometimes
So I hide in my own corner so I don't have to put on anymore masks
I'm afraid of the voices in my head but I'm more afraid of the silence
If they aren't there then I'd have to seek comfort in myself
How would I ever begin
I'm young but also old sitting on the edge of my youth
Scarred from my past and worried about my future
My favourite memory is being on the beach and walking into the sea the waves lapping at my feet
There's an unspeakable freedom that comes with being at the point where two different worlds meet
I'm not sure what I want all of the time but I'm sure of what I need
And that's peace.