Save me

When life looses its meaning
Being alive is a chore
Remembering to breathe and existing behind a mask
Those little moments of youthful exuberance
Those long nights of endless gossip and empty beer cans
The times spent ensconced within his arms
They're long gone but take root in the back of my mind
I want to go back
To fight for what once was and be happy again
I'm scared
That this loneliness will suffocate me
When that happens I won't be able to return
The pain shattering reality leaving me in a haze
Can't you take me away?
Is it hard?
I only want to live
I want to breathe and laugh and love
Am I truly asking for too much?
Well I get it, I deserve this right?
I know
But I'm still begging you
Till my  throat hurts and my eyes sting
Please save me