Siren

She had no luck in life
Everything she ever had she lost and always without a fight
Time was against her
Sacrifice her constant companion
Her pain a jagged white line piercing through her blackened soul
Everyday she would get up and remind herself to breathe
She had stopped living a long time ago she just had to survive
Nothing ever went as planned
She thought the universe had connived against her
It changed her completely
She'd rather listen more than speak
Trapping everything within
Forgetting that life was meant to be lived
Unapologetically and freely so
She reminded me of a beautifully controlled chaos
Majestic and tragic at the same damn time
She smiled like she cried, carelessly and with abandon
I never knew what to say in both instances
Completely entranced by her
The darkness she carried threatened to choke me
I wasn't detered , I wanted to love and protect
Sitting here now I think of my life's greatest flaw
Her image jumps into my mind, hair flying in the wind, rain whipping about her face
Hands spread apart inhaling petrichor
Closing my mind I tried to hold her there frozen in place
But as always the memory fades away
And soon after comes the pain
Loosing my heart to her would forever be my biggest mistake
Pinching the bridge of my nose I chuckle softly
I wish someone had told me
The little girl at my feet looked up at me " what was that papa" she said softly
Staring into those familiar mysterious brown eyes I picked her up
" I wish someone had told me poppet,  not to love a broken girl "
And with that I enveloped her tiny self and buried my nose in her hair
The image jumped in to my mind again
And I felt the lump that formed in my heart from thinking about her loosen
And the air trapped in my lungs for years rush out in a single swift breath