To the only boy I've ever loved....

Can I tell you a story
About a boy so complex and  beautiful, a true contradiction
His eyes were the colour of the earth, a murky dark brown
They held a quiet intensity that reeled you in
His voice like spun silk coaxing you into his arms
I remember the first time I heard him laugh
That moment permanently seared into my mind
It was just us that night, sitting under the stars after the class had dispersed
His quiet gaze following me till I tripped over a fallen branch
Then I heard it, a loud booming sound coming from behind me
Turning around I saw him, hands clutching his middle, eyes sparkling with unbridled amusement
I felt the tears pool in my eyes and my throat tighten with embarrassment
He walked up to me and took my hand, dusting me off and whispering  how he's got me
I looked up at him heart in my mouth as he brushed away my tears his lips still twitching with surpressed laughter
Groaning I buried my head on his chest, he laughed again and I felt the vibrations flow through me
Regaining my composure I moved to leave
Looking at me with those accursed eyes of his he said stay with me
And like a fool i did, I still couldn't believe I was in the same space as him
Walking back we laid down our backs against the grass
He told me about the constellations and laughed at me as I counted the stars
He showed me his drawings and smirked when I gasped and my jaw went slack
We spoke about ancient times, gods, Kings and religion
As the moon cast an eerie glow around him his skin glowed bronze
I thought to myself the stupidest smile on my face I must be dreaming
And like everything in life the night came to an end and the magic with it
For with the morning came bad news and pain
There'd been an accident, he was fine but It felt like I was going insane
He'd lost sensation in his hands and the meaning to life
Living in isolation, a tragic aura engulfing him
Walking in on him one night, asleep papers strewn across with unfinished works and streaks of tears on his face
A beautifully controlled chaos, a broken mess
I wanted to close my eyes, absorb your pain and make you okay again
But instead I'll leave you this note, my heart folded into its corners
I want to shield you from the world and endure your storms
But not because you're not strong enough
Because my heart hurts to see you struggle so much
Before I sign off I think you should know
You remind me of the sun, you hide away
But always come back even more magestic than before