Big girls cry

Trying to hold it in
Trying not to let the weight of the world pull me in
Walking around back arched, shoulders back, head high
Heart breaking, soul screaming, mind reeling from all the lies
My smile falters, the facade breaks
The hidden pain rears it's head determined to hide it no matter what it takes

Going home thoughts wandering, I walk in
Into the emptiness and bleakness that is all me
All alone and lonely withing the silence
Suffocating, compressed by the eerie quiet

Shuffling around I check my phone and see your text
I scream in pain and writhed as I clutched my chest
Shattering into a million pieces my hopes and dreams
Remembering all the signs and signals and how I chose to ignore it

Rocking back and forth the tears threatening to spill and I let it
I cried in pain for what you did
But I cried more as I looked in the mirror and saw WEAK

All cried out I look around as I sit
Feeling a lot better and able to breathe
Happy I was able to let it free
Now I'm going to rise up and on my own shoulders I will lean
Broken and weak before I learned to try
Put it to the test and now I understand that big girls cry