Fool's Gold

Staring into the distance, mind wandering
Struggling, Cowering away from the truth of my feelings
How foolish I was, while you were forever deceiving
Listening to your lies I ended up believing
Ashamed and scared as it is treason
Against common sense to fall without reason
But despite knowing all of this
I have no regret for doing as I please
For despite being used and treated like a chit
I still think of your voice, your touch and your kiss
I want to banish you to the recesses of my mind
Put your head on a chopping block and think of thoughts not so kind
But no matter how hard I try
To forget all you said and dismiss your lies
I can't seem to hate you even though you made me cry
Head in my hands I let out a frustrated sigh
At the determination of my battered yet elastic heart
Looking back on everything you've put me through
How you lied and cheated and made me a fool
Yet I know I couldn't live without you
Wiping my eyes as the tears keep falling
Remembering the days when you were kind and caring
Knowing now that you were just wise and cunning
Sad because it's still you that my heart is intent on loving