Unrequited

Staring at the phone wary
Scared of the messages with meanings that vary
Choking on a sob recalling how u hurt me
Threw my feelings in my face n told me bluntly
How you could never be the one I wanted
How I could never be the one you loved and treasured
Thinking of how you laughed at my feelings
Mocked me as you sat there grinning
And like an idiot I kept on Trying
Calling, texting, my faith in us never wavering
But you turned away from me and that said it all
Told me you didn't care without inuendos and metaphoric words
Sometimes I wonder what possessed me into falling
Putting in my all and almost letting you in
You want what I can't give n I want wat u can't
I want sweet kisses and loving caresses while u want bitchy rants
We are so different yet I'm pulled in by the consuming desires of my heart
I don't know what to do but to take a step back
Refrain from telling you my feelings to avoid ur vicious attacks
Put in as much as you do so we end up at par
Thought you were my fairytale but ended up being my nightmare
I want to wake up but not until I have you Cowering in fear
At the thought of me leaving enough to make me stay
Sometimes I want you to lie to me, take a role like in a play
And act like if I was gone you'd never be the same