What makes you think

'' What makes you think i'' you said
And it ended up being about the life I led
Going over, replaying every sentence in my head
Cos of things done you've heard
Running my hands thru my hair
Thinking of better ways of handling it than entering angers lair

So many loud voices screaming at me
Imagination running wild about the things you didn't let spill
Angry, so mad cos I never wanted this
To feel this way about you and loose my peace
But you barged in and took control
Now you're pulling the strings and reversing the roles
I'm hurt but I have no right to be
I wanted to know so I could tell you what truly lies within

Head in my hands trying not to cry and failing
You might wonder why, recalling all those who refused understanding
Don't be like them I want to scream, let me explain
Let you in and show you the truth, simple and plain

I thought I could follow this and let all my inhibitions go
But now I know to hold back and withold
I feel like everything unstringed as soon as that phrase was uttered
It undid me and all my thoughts jumbled and scattered
All attempts to save it proved futile
Freaking out cause you see me as broken, horrible and vile

Want to defend myself but can't
Behind every rumor, deep within lies a truth at last
I write this in clear terms cause I want you to see
What a few words and a simple altercation can do to me

I'm a split painting put back together by the masters hand
But he knows that the slightest touch I fall apart
The voices in my head taunting me to stop
To hide it all underneath and just talk
But I can't seem to get over it
Wondering eyes balling at the phrase '' What makes you think ''