Pain

Crying is not due to weakness
But due to being strong for too long
As tears flow down I'm suffocating walls all around
As the chatter surrounding me fades into the background
Wondering when the pain will go away
Running my hands through my hair as my thoughts stray
Back to the times when things where simple
When my faith was strong and my fear feeble
When I thought they were no monsters under my bed
But now I know they are all in my head
Screaming groaning causing agonizing pain
The voices taunting I scream I'm not plain
I look at the flowers and admire it's pollen
It's brilliant color the work of an artist
What I could never be,  a painting  a masterpiece
Tired dejected I go to bed
Cos I know in there I can escape all I've felt
In dreams I live floating joy reigns
But I know once I wake I'll have to face the pain again